Yesterday was a bad day for me, a bad, bad day. I rarely judge a complete day as bad as there are usually little parts of the day that are good. And in all truth, the 3 of us made it home safely so I guess there was some good to the day, but that was the only good part.
It all started because I had an eye doctor’s appointment in Tulsa to check up on the laser surgery I had done on Friday. Dr. Wofford had told me on Friday “just come by the office Monday morning so we can check it out”. He never gave me a specific time so I assumed it would be a quick in and out. I left the house a little after 10 a.m., hoping I could make it to Tulsa and back home before the bad weather began.
I arrived at the doctor’s office about 11:30 only to be told that Dr. Wofford had forgot that he doesn’t come into the office until 1 on Mondays. The drive into Tulsa was hard enough on my still healing eyes, so I didn’t really feel comfortable driving around Tulsa. Barnes and Noble was very close so I drove over there and figured I’d spend the next 1 1/2 hours looking through books. The only problem here was that I couldn’t see well enough to read what the books were about, even though my distance vision has been altered my near vision will still require that I use reading glasses and because I am still healing I don’t know what strength I will need when it is all said and done, therefore I haven’t purchased reading glasses as of yet.
A little before 1 I returned to the doctor’s office and they put me into an exam room. Dr. Wofford entered and looked at my eyes, said they were healing well but still had a little ways to go (remember on us ‘old folks’ healing takes just a little longer than it does on a young whipper-snapper). He asked Marisol to remove the contact bandages and then he’d look again. Marisol lubricated my eyes and tried to remove the contacts, unsuccessfully. She added more lubrication and tried again, and again, added more lubrication, waited and tried again, all unsuccessfully. She told Dr. Wofford she could not get them out. He washed his hands, relubricated my eyes and tried, unsuccessfully. He mentioned that he’d never seen contacts suction up to a person’s eye this way. He relubricated, Marisol held my right eye open and he literally pulled the contact off my eye. I immediately jerked my head away from him and covered my eye with my hands, stinging tears welling up in my eyes.
He then turned his attention to my left eye. He tried to slide the contact over a bit and it would not budge. He told Marisol that we needed to numb my eye and use the forceps. I’m thinking “GREAT”. Marisol numbs my eye and he reaches down with the forceps and yanks the contact off my eye. I jerk back away from the magnifier and cover my face with my hands, tears are streaming down my face. The pain is something akin to what I imagine sandpaper rubbing back and forth across your cornea would be. The stinging is so bad that neither of my eyes will open on their own. They force my eyelids apart and begin putting several drops in both eyes. Dr. Wofford tells me to lay back, they turn off the lights and leave me to rest for 15 minutes. After the rest he looks at my eyes to find that the edge of the right cornea has been scratched a little but he thinks in all likelihood it will heal. The left eye is swollen and they need to replace the contact bandaid as the healing from the surgery is not complete. You know I am crying, not wanting to experience this again. He put on a larger contact, he thinks most of the problem was caused because he used a smaller contact the first time. So, my eye has been rebandaged and the pain has eased some, so he tells me to come back on Wednesday to remove the new contact. “GREAT”.
MONDAY SAGA PART 2 (The Drive Home)
It’s 1:35 and I leave the doctor’s office to find that the bad weather has arrived in Tulsa. The freezing mist is coming down and the roads are already becoming slick. My left eye is swollen and I can barely see out of it. I warm up my car and leave the parking lot. Fortunately, everyone else is also driving cautiously.
Everything is going fine, moving slowly, but moving, until I reach the on-ramp to Hiway 169. The police have the on-ramp blocked because there is an accident up on the hiway. So I have to pass by the 169 on-ramp and the next sign I see is for Joplin. Normally, when the roads are not icy and when my eyes are not swollen and painful and I can see this would not bother me too much. But today is a totally different story. I call J, crying, telling him I don’t know what to do (Drama Queen much?). J asks what I see around me, “I can’t see” I cry into the phone. He tries to guess where I am and he tells me that Garnett Street should be just up ahead of me, which once I stop to think I know it is. So, I hang up, a little reassured that I can surely find my way home. My goodness, I’ve lived in this area most of my life.
It takes me almost 25 minutes to get from 169 to Garnett Street because the traffic is moving so slowly. Well, as you know, everyone else trying to head north on 169 has this same idea, so getting onto Garnett Street was no easy task. Long story short (too late you’re saying?) I arrived home sometime between 3:30 and 4 pm after seeing 2 accidents, 3 stalled vehicles and 2 cars on the sides of the hiway and 1 SUV in a ditch. . I had talked (cried) to J another 2 times on the 45 mile/2 hour and some odd minutes drive home. I have never in all my life wanted so badly to be Dorothy Gale and able to click my little heels together and be home. J said he would pick the teenager up and see that she gets home safely. So by 5:30 we are all 3 home, snug and safe. The one good part of today.
By the time I arrived home, I can’t even tell you how painful and swollen my left eye was. I put a warm wet cloth over my eye to ease the pain, then filled my eye with ointment and put on my dark glasses and laid down until J and the teenager arrived. I kept my dark glasses on (lights off in the house) most of the evening.
MONDAY SAGA PART 3 (Fear Sets In)
I had prepared turkey lasagna before my eye surgery so we pulled it out for dinner, along with garlic toast and a large green salad. My eye sight was so bad that I couldn’t even distinguish shapes in the salad. The broccoli florets and snap peas, other than the different shade of color, looked just like the rest of the green in the salad. I could distinguish the color of the carrots, cherry tomatoes and cauliflower but the shape of them was not distinct.
This is when I began thinking that maybe I had made a horrible, non-reversible mistake with the whole eye surgery. Not only have I ruined my eyesight I spent $2,800 to do it. J and the teenager are reassuring me that it is just because I had such a traumatic day and that my eyes were still swollen. They kept telling me that once the swelling is gone everything will be fine and that I’m still healing after all. I’m not believing them one teensy bit.
I end the day by putting more ointment in my eye, putting on my dark nighttime goggles, taking 2 Advil and heading to bed with swollen, sore, blurry eyes and a pounding headache.
But each day dawns anew and the same is true for this morning. The ice is still here, heavier than the eve before, but I can see (sort of) once again. My eyes are not as swollen, they no longer hurt and I can see the television. I can’t read a book yet and I am having to wear this cheap little $1 pair of wobbly glasses J purchased for me to write this on the computer, but all in all, I can once again see for the most part.
And it is back to the eye doctor tomorrow. Oh my.